Surprise!

Well here we go again on this roller coaster of a ride, the dips, turns, and upside down Lupe-De Lupe's. Hell what a ride I tell you! If your a little lost let me inform you of what I'm talking about, I am pregnant again. About 4 and a half months to be exact, this would be my 3d pregnancy. After kierra's 1st birthday I became pregnant for the 2ND time, was about a month and some along... Then miscarried for some reason. Out of the blue I became pregnant again, it was confusing at first because we didn't know how it could have happened (we wanted my body to heal, but I hadn't even had my first period yet after the miscarriage..), but it did. So we went with it, and it's been one hell of a ride as a stated before. I have been nothing but sick, a lot of the time it doesn't make sense but then again it dose. I guess it doesn't help that I have been depressed, don't get me wrong I have been so happy about this baby coming ( A bigger family, who could ask for more), I just can't help sometimes but to be down and sad. I don't mean to be, and all I do is cry. I know it makes Colin frustrated with me, and we fight... But I don't know how to fix it, I don't know how to be happy all the time I guess. He says that I'm not a good girlfriend sometimes, I don't know how to be better... How do I be better? I want to be the best I can be for him, I love him SO much. I know it's hard on him, when I go into a down... All he wants to do it help but can't. I just don't know how to make it all better. Everything has been so hard and stressful on him, what with all the complications, downs, mood swings, money, and Kierra not always listening and stuff... But they have been hard on me too, everything is hard on me too... I just want to make it better. The just of it all is I guess, I am happy about the baby, very very happy. But I do get depressed. It's just one big lupe and right now I'm stuck upside down.

Kierralynn is is doing great though, teeth all in pretty much, trying to talk, running everywhere, and just happy. I love my little monster.

Love Terra