meaning

What is the meaning of life? I know I'll never get the awnser, because well people have been asking that question for centrys without getting a full awnser. Everyone eventually gets thier own awnser to the meaning of life, it's just waiting for it that sucks.
Like really I can't figure out what the point of my life is, but I've tryed the whole dying thing and it seems "god" dosen't want me dead yet. So that makes me think that theres a reason for me still being here, but what is that reason? What or who is it that I'm going to be able to change? I fight and I fight and fight, get knocked down time after time, yet still eventually get back up. I just don't understand, guess I never will. My lifes not perfect, never will it be, but I would like to be happy, TRUELY happy for once in my life. I don't know where I'm going with all this, or if anyone cares, but here I am writing everything I'm thinking down. My faith in god is sitting on the edge, yet I still do belive. Can't figure out why I belive but I do, theres some plan for me... but what?

stop

STOP seems to be the only smart word I've come to listen to lately. But even when I tell myself stop, my mind keeps going. I will admit I am WRONG about you. There is no me and you, never will there be a ME and YOU! So piss off and fuck off, OH and have a great day!

hehehe I like the word STOP, it's a word that actually gets through some peoples heads.
And when it dosen't, I let them meet my fist. It's fun!
But that is it, that is all for today, not alot I know but suck it up princess! lol

Terra

now and then

I think about you, and what we used to have. How when you left without even saying goodbye, I cryed. Now your back in my life and I'm confused, you tell me nothings changed with your feelings for me. But why is the only thing I can ask myself, why didn't he call, why didn't he tell me, WHY dose he want to come back into my life now? I thought all my feelings were locked up good behind the doors in my mind, yet now I find them slipping back into my mind and heart. Should I trust him again like I did back then, should I belive everything he's telling me now. That he's sorry for hurtting me, and he never ment too, that he still loves me and has thought about me all these years. I know I shouldn't, but I find myself falling back into his words, and if I didn't care still my eyes wouldn't be leaking... leaking for hope, tears falling cuz I think it's all to good to be true.... is it to good to be true?

Terra