When asleep I dream of monsters,
This person you've turned out to be,
Oh how I loved you once.

Broken down to nothing again,
In my mind I find no means to an end.
Riding a rollercoaster of thought,
No longer loving who I am,
Always putting my everything into him.

Who are you?
Who am I?
The question is no longer about who you are,
But where this person who is me has disappeared too...

I can see myself running with no end in sight,
Tears falling,
Forming puddles of memories on my well beaten path.

Truths that are lies,
Lies that can't be the truth,
Contradicting myself left and right,
What is there to believe in?

You beat me down with your words,
Helping me dig this hole deeper,
All just to bring me closer to where you are.

You watch me,
Knowing I can no longer stand on my own.
Slowly your letting me drown,
In all these binding flash back memories of you.

I'm so confused...
You were the beginning of my sin...


(I wrote this a few weeks back about an ex that told me he still loved me...
Mike you can be such an ass when you know it will hurt me.)

Terra