weird

It's yet again another boring weekend in the Terra house. Sitting on my ass doing nothing, but getting up to go to the bathroom or the fridge, I can't seem to find anything to do. Everyone is busy or working so they can't go out. What luck I have eh? LOL oh well, shit happens then you move on right.

I was actually going through other peoples blogs for the first time the other night, I was amazed at some of the stuff people came up with to talk about. Like this one guy went on for so long about pigeon poop, and how he thought the pigeons were shitting on 3 certain stairs on purpose. I was to say the least dumbfounded on why someone would just talk and talk and talk about pigeon shit. And the stupid thing is, I just kept reading what he wrote, while I might add giggling my ass off. Then there were other bloggers, some I didn't understand, others we're just weird. Sex blogs, dancing blogs, phone and airline, love and hate, drugs, booze, EVEN stalker bloggers. Just so many different and weird bloggers. I never really realized there were so many weird people out there...Just like me. I'm the type of person that can pick one topic and just go on and on about that one little thing, I may contradict myself a lot while I'm talking about it, but I still don't lose track of what I'm saying. May it be about bird poop, god, truth and lies, or even bugs. Whatever works right LOL....It's all good though I just thought I would say that it intrigues me, some of the thing people come up with to talk about. You think that there's only weird things going on in your head, then you read something someone else said and then you know that it's not just YOU thinking about those things.
SHIZZA and WHOA....Weird eh?

Terra

OH and I have to thank everyone that has been supporting me through all this, it means so so so much to me. Lyssa, Candis, your my bestfriend's and there are no words to express what you mean to me. And well Noah, you talked me out of doing something stupid...Like waiting LOL....You calmed me down and just make me smile(many meny times). There's nothing more I can ask from you than to keep making me smile. LOL But thank you Noah all that you have done for me means so much....Just thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
Miss. Terra

Change...

Well I guess I can now say I have found my meaning for life!! I'm now going on 6 weeks of being pregnant, so there's my meaning to life!! I'm going to get to raise a beautiful baby girl or boy.... I have something to fight for now, and keep me going. I can't wait till I'm able to see my babies first steps and words, the smiles, and well being called mommy. This is one of the best things that ever could have happened to me, and I cry at thinking that in just 8 more months I'll be holding this little angel in my arms, thanking god for this gift.

Not everyone is happy about it, but that's ok, I know that soon they will be just as happy as me.
The babies dad is confused on what he wants to do, I know he wanted me to have an abortion but I could never bring myself to do it. I just hope that he'll come around in some way for the baby, I don't want my child growing up with out a father like I did. I know how much it hurts not to have one around, I don't want him or her to feel that sort of pain.

As for me being with the dad, no I'm not. It's fine with me, it was just something that happened between the 2 of us. I don't regret it, it's what happened between us that's giving me this angel.

But when it dose come to being with someone, I've been doing a lot of thinking... Who in their right mind is going to want to be with a woman with a baby on the way. There is nothing more in my life that I could ask for than to find someone who would want to be with me. Baby and all. I would never expect a guy to take on a father role with my kid, it's not there problem. I'm talking about finding someone who will accept the fact that I do have a kid on the way, and it won't bother them. My baby has a dad, so I'm not looking for that spot to be filled. I just want the empty spot by my side and in my heart to be filled with someone who will just care for me. And accept me with all my flaws, big and small ones LOL.....Maybe I'm just dreaming this guy up, probably am...But it doesn't hurt a girl to hope that there's a guy out there like that.

But yes that's the news of Miss. Terra happy mother to be...YAY I'm so excited