Well I guess I can now say I have found my meaning for life!! I'm now going on 6 weeks of being pregnant, so there's my meaning to life!! I'm going to get to raise a beautiful baby girl or boy.... I have something to fight for now, and keep me going. I can't wait till I'm able to see my babies first steps and words, the smiles, and well being called mommy. This is one of the best things that ever could have happened to me, and I cry at thinking that in just 8 more months I'll be holding this little angel in my arms, thanking god for this gift.
Not everyone is happy about it, but that's ok, I know that soon they will be just as happy as me.
The babies dad is confused on what he wants to do, I know he wanted me to have an abortion but I could never bring myself to do it. I just hope that he'll come around in some way for the baby, I don't want my child growing up with out a father like I did. I know how much it hurts not to have one around, I don't want him or her to feel that sort of pain.
As for me being with the dad, no I'm not. It's fine with me, it was just something that happened between the 2 of us. I don't regret it, it's what happened between us that's giving me this angel.
But when it dose come to being with someone, I've been doing a lot of thinking... Who in their right mind is going to want to be with a woman with a baby on the way. There is nothing more in my life that I could ask for than to find someone who would want to be with me. Baby and all. I would never expect a guy to take on a father role with my kid, it's not there problem. I'm talking about finding someone who will accept the fact that I do have a kid on the way, and it won't bother them. My baby has a dad, so I'm not looking for that spot to be filled. I just want the empty spot by my side and in my heart to be filled with someone who will just care for me. And accept me with all my flaws, big and small ones LOL.....Maybe I'm just dreaming this guy up, probably am...But it doesn't hurt a girl to hope that there's a guy out there like that.
But yes that's the news of Miss. Terra happy mother to be...YAY I'm so excited
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