meaning

What is the meaning of life? I know I'll never get the awnser, because well people have been asking that question for centrys without getting a full awnser. Everyone eventually gets thier own awnser to the meaning of life, it's just waiting for it that sucks.
Like really I can't figure out what the point of my life is, but I've tryed the whole dying thing and it seems "god" dosen't want me dead yet. So that makes me think that theres a reason for me still being here, but what is that reason? What or who is it that I'm going to be able to change? I fight and I fight and fight, get knocked down time after time, yet still eventually get back up. I just don't understand, guess I never will. My lifes not perfect, never will it be, but I would like to be happy, TRUELY happy for once in my life. I don't know where I'm going with all this, or if anyone cares, but here I am writing everything I'm thinking down. My faith in god is sitting on the edge, yet I still do belive. Can't figure out why I belive but I do, theres some plan for me... but what?