You know....

You know it seems like the future is so far away, yet today was the future yesterday. It's taken me so long to get to this point in my life, I finally have a reason to fight. I thought Kierra was the only reason I had for still being here, but she was the reason for keeping me here at first. Now I know that yes she is the main reason, but I'm also here because of me. I am worth fighting for. I can make my goals and dreams reality. It's going to take me awhile, this I know. All in due-time right, well I think that this is my time to shine now. It's only fair that I get the chance to be happy, I've been to hell and back more than once in my shortly lived life so far. So many years ahead of me, and I know it's going to get hard again. But I have to set an example for my beautiful little girl. One day I want her to be able to look up to me, and if I don't change things now, she never will. And well I want to be able to say that I'm proud of myself, instead of feeling shame when I look in the mirror. My past is my past, It's not who I am now, though it did help make me the person I am today. If my life wasn't the way it was, I would be a totally different person, and honistly I like who I've grown to become. I have the family I always dreamed of, well not a whole family but I couldn't be happier about it right now. One day the dream will be made full. I know how to wait for good thing to happen now. I know I will get upset and mad about things still, but never again to the point that I was at before. I don't want another mark made on my body by my own hand ever again. That part of me is gone. Again one day someone will accept my daughter and me for all the faults, then the rest of my dream will come true.

I know you all aren't used to me talking like this, or maybe you are who knows lol. Thats that though.

Love Terra and Kierra