New.

So here's the thing, I'm in an amazing new relationship with this really great guy. Go figure that I would find one of them eh. But believe it or not I did. It's weird, this guy is so far from the asshole types that I usually go for, like so very far. I'm sure though that he can be an asshole, but so far he hasn't been to me. He hasn't even tried or wanted to use me in anyway. Hell he's even accepted my daughter along with me. He plays with her and just yeah it's so great. And well with me he's just always so sweet, I don't understand why someone would treat me so well. I'm not used to it by far. I am seriously just speechless, and well that doesn't happen often at all!!

I find myself having problems writing this, everything's just coming to my head all at once and jumbled. So I'm trying to be as clear as I can, and not jump from one thing to the next. But I'm just writing as things come to mind and out.

Back to Colin.... hehe wow. I guess that's it. He already knows everything really that goes on in my head, because I have no problems telling him. The damn fucking rabbit broke through my wall, and has started taking over my heart. Damit, I promised myself that would never happen, and a relationship was for sissies. I'm a sissy then. Because I like this relationship thing right now. It's just so wired that I can now say "boyfriend". LOL Last time that happened was Mike, and we all know how that went. (I still do and always will miss him probably, there is a place in my heart that no one will take over. That's my memory of him's home.)

Colin makes me feel great about myself, constantly telling me how beautiful I am. It's so hard to get used too. It's almost like I'm in high school again, the way me makes me feel. Talk about massive butterflies. Shizza, I'm in a lot of trouble with this one. Lord knows though if anything came between us, I would fight like a bitch to keep him. He is stuck right here till he feels he wants to go.

Ok so now on Kierra, she's getting so damn big. And still to this day my heart melts when I look at her. I don't know what I did to deserve her, but I'm glad I did it. I could never love anyone or anything more than I love her. Pete takes a close second though. I miss that little man sooooooooooo fucking much, I still cry because he's gone. Yeah I'm a baby, I know it. Just can't let other people know about me being weak. LOL

Well that's all for now, I'll be back soon for another update. Though I'm sure no one reads this anyways. LMAO

Love Terra