Well

It's been an intresting few days since I last wrote on here. First let me start by saying I'm still alive, second I'm also now single again. I broke up with my ex yesterday night because I couldn't handle someone that was more clingy than myself as well at talked more than myself. I liked the guy but when your only going out with a person for 2 weeks not even, and he wants to tell you that he loves you....it gets kind of scarey! Also I can't keep lieing to myself about who I want to be with ne more, I just have to face facts that my bestfriend is who I'm ment to be with. Were both just to damn stubborn to do ne thing about it, he cares for me like I care abotu him. I can finally admit that, I think I'm ready to admit that :.

My mother told me tonight that I've grown up to be a wonderful/careing/very pretty young lady, she made me just about break down and cry. I also relised I have friends in people that I thought didn't give a flying rats ass, yet they do and I just wanna say thank you. I can't sit here and tell you all that everything is ok when it's not, I'm still having to many problems to even count on my hands and feet, but I'm dealing I guess you could say. Why dose life have to be so hard for some people? I just couldn't be one of those people that gets to fly through life, and be happy all the time... oh no that would just be wrong wouldn't it. Damn fucking shit! But hell I guess I'm dealing now eh, well the best I can I suppose. So many different issues to face everyday, it just make me more and more confused about life. Is this normal to be feeling all this? So many questions yet no way of awnsering all of them right now... sorry for wasting all you peoples special time but I'm done now, I think it's bedtime before I start over thinking and over analizing everything...or wait I already have started doing that hahaha shizza. Night everyone take it easy.

Terra